Where do I start? I can't really relive the past, or go back and share about all of the things that I wanted to at the time. All I can do is start where I'm at.
So, Where am I?
I'm in a new chapter of my life. Some not so small changes have happened. The transition from homeschool to public school is one of them. All summer I wrestled with what I already knew the answer was regarding our boys schooling. After 4+ years of homeschooling, I felt like God was gently nudging me to let go of homeschooling, along with the control I desperately sought to maintain, and the irrational fears that I had. Whether it's just for this year, or for longer, I don't know. It's an interesting position to be in, though. I still firmly support the right to homeschool and I still fully believe in the reasons that we homeschooled for 4 years. I loved the time we had as a family to explore, the freedom to travel when we wanted to, the ability to dive into subjects that we found interesting. But it was time for a change of perspective. Although we aren't even a month into public school yet, I've found that we still have time to explore, it just looks a little different. We don't have as much freedom to travel, but I think that we have already become more intentional with the time that we do have. And I don't think that our boys will ever not dive deeper into subjects that interest them. It's just a part of who they are.
What are some good things that have come from taking this step? I appreciate on a deeper level what I have now. I'm more intentional about being fully present when I'm with my boys. I am more diligent in prayer for them. We still have our friendships from our other circles and activities. But we've added a whole new set of friends, acquaintances, and connections to our life. I feel more engaged in my neighborhood and community.
It doesn't mean that it will be all rosy and perfect. Because it won't, and already isn't. But I have peace about being in a position that I didn't expect myself to be in. And I'm so thankful for the One that my peace comes from!
Here are my guys on their first day of public school.