Wednesday, September 10, 2014

A New Chapter

It's hard to sit down and write when it's been almost a year since my last post.  It's humbling to know that I've been ignoring the desire to blog for a WHOLE YEAR.  It's amazing how procrastination, resistance, or whatever you want to call it, can keep me from something that I truly enjoy doing.

Where do I start?  I can't really relive the past, or go back and share about all of the things that I wanted to at the time.  All I can do is start where I'm at.

So, Where am I?

I'm in a new chapter of my life.  Some not so small changes have happened. The transition from homeschool to public school is one of them. All summer I wrestled with what I already knew the answer was regarding our boys schooling.  After 4+ years of homeschooling, I felt like God was gently nudging me to let go of homeschooling, along with the control I desperately sought to maintain, and the irrational fears that I had. Whether it's just for this year, or for longer, I don't know.  It's an interesting position to be in, though.  I still firmly support the right to homeschool and I still fully believe in the reasons that we homeschooled for 4 years.  I loved the time we had as a family to explore, the freedom to travel when we wanted to, the ability to dive into subjects that we found interesting. But it was time for a change of perspective.  Although we aren't even a month into public school yet, I've found that we still have time to explore, it just looks a little different.  We don't have as much freedom to travel, but I think that we have already become more intentional with the time that we do have.  And I don't think that our boys will ever not dive deeper into subjects that interest them.  It's just a part of who they are.

What are some good things that have come from taking this step?  I appreciate on a deeper level what I have now.  I'm more intentional about being fully present when I'm with my boys. I am more diligent in prayer for them. We still  have our friendships from our other circles and activities.  But we've added a whole new set of friends, acquaintances, and connections to our life.  I feel more engaged in my neighborhood and community.

It doesn't mean that it will be all rosy and perfect.  Because it won't, and already isn't.  But I have peace about being in a position that I didn't expect myself to be in. And I'm so thankful for the One that my peace comes from!

Here are my guys on their first day of public school.


Anonymous said...

Yay! You're back!

Kendra said...

Yes, I am!!